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October 30, 2007 - Evening
For the rest of the afternoon, Foreman found himself chuckling at odd moments. He'd be in the middle of the monstrous pile of paperwork, his back cramping from leaning over, his eyes aching, and all of a sudden he'd realize he was grinning like an idiot. He'd glance up, glad that there wasn't anyone to catch him at it, and think of Amber suffering horribly down in the clinic, and shake his head before going back to work. She'd be tired after a long day, and if her reaction to the usual run of mild complaints was anything like his, she'd be too tired to do much tonight other than go home and collapse. Foreman could spare some compassion then: he'd offer to cook, or at least, to order something in. Hell, even massage her feet if she wanted. The fact that he was going with her--that she'd invited him again, and that he already had all the things he'd need waiting in his car--buoyed him up, even when the stack of consult requests only seemed to get stupider the deeper he delved into them.
By twenty to five, Foreman had sent form letter replies to as many idiot doctors as he could without losing his faith in humanity. He'd go down and let the candidates off early, be magnanimous for as long as he could afford to be. He needed to ingratiate himself with them somehow, even if was only by knocking fifteen minutes off their drudgery. Cuddy could hardly complain: she'd been underusing six of the most talented doctors in the hospital for most of the day, and, Foreman knew--since they had to be sharing Cameron and Chase's old salaries among them--for a pittance. House was a bastard, but days like this were ones Cuddy probably counted as a win in their perpetual battle.
Foreman turned of the computer, turned off the lights, and grabbed his coat. He wouldn't bother with his briefcase tonight; he wasn't planning on sucking up to Cuddy any more than he'd be compromising with House. If he'd gotten his own office and his own staff like he'd asked for, then she could think about making him stay late trudging through House's paperwork.
He arrived in the clinic five minutes later. The first person he saw was Brennan, who only gave him a mildly disgruntled stare when Foreman gave him permission to go. He snorted, but he seemed glad enough to go and tell the others that they were off the hook.
Foreman checked the board to see which exam room Amber was in with her last patient, and, leaving his coat at the nurses' station, he went and knocked on the door. He was already sure that everyone in the whole hospital was well aware of what was going on between him and Amber. That didn't mean that he had to confirm all their suspicions--but he could also take a few liberties that he might not have if they were still being 'discreet'. Feeling pleased with himself, he opened it just enough to stick his head in and said, with as much seriousness as he could muster, "Dr. Volakis, could I have a word with you?"
By twenty to five, Foreman had sent form letter replies to as many idiot doctors as he could without losing his faith in humanity. He'd go down and let the candidates off early, be magnanimous for as long as he could afford to be. He needed to ingratiate himself with them somehow, even if was only by knocking fifteen minutes off their drudgery. Cuddy could hardly complain: she'd been underusing six of the most talented doctors in the hospital for most of the day, and, Foreman knew--since they had to be sharing Cameron and Chase's old salaries among them--for a pittance. House was a bastard, but days like this were ones Cuddy probably counted as a win in their perpetual battle.
Foreman turned of the computer, turned off the lights, and grabbed his coat. He wouldn't bother with his briefcase tonight; he wasn't planning on sucking up to Cuddy any more than he'd be compromising with House. If he'd gotten his own office and his own staff like he'd asked for, then she could think about making him stay late trudging through House's paperwork.
He arrived in the clinic five minutes later. The first person he saw was Brennan, who only gave him a mildly disgruntled stare when Foreman gave him permission to go. He snorted, but he seemed glad enough to go and tell the others that they were off the hook.
Foreman checked the board to see which exam room Amber was in with her last patient, and, leaving his coat at the nurses' station, he went and knocked on the door. He was already sure that everyone in the whole hospital was well aware of what was going on between him and Amber. That didn't mean that he had to confirm all their suspicions--but he could also take a few liberties that he might not have if they were still being 'discreet'. Feeling pleased with himself, he opened it just enough to stick his head in and said, with as much seriousness as he could muster, "Dr. Volakis, could I have a word with you?"
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Eric was still terrible at saying what he meant, but she thought she had an idea of what he was hinting at, now. "Oh, yeah?" Amber challenged, breathing in deeply with his mouth caressing her throat. "Do it." She wanted it. Wanted to hear him call her baby, wanted that spontaneous, natural affection. Didn't care that if it'd come from anyone else, she'd have told them off; all that mattered to her was that he meant it with whatever emotion he had. And Amber didn't know how, since she'd just come, but the thought of it, sent a jolt straight to her clit; made her wetter. Her arms folded around him, below his armpits, and she rose up into him, her bare, sweaty breasts pressing against his chest. Closed her eyes as she brushed her cheek against his, her chin resting on his shoulder. She wanted him, so much.
"Yeah," she murmured, nodding. It was about time they got horizontal.
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She frowned, her arms slipping down slightly as her hold loosened; she'd told him to call her that. Later wasn’t good, she wanted it now. Hadn't he understood? Did he think that some of her decisions were optional, do only if you fucking feel like it? He'd felt like it when he'd had his fingers up her vagina, why not now?
It was hardly a big deal-- two syllables-- and if he didn't want to, then he didn't want to. When they set the terms, she'd asked him for his limits; he'd said he didn't know, and that he'd find them with her. Okay. Amber sighed. It was idiotic and made no sense, but she'd agreed, and Eric did have this right.
It shouldn't have mattered, but the refusal weighed on her, sinking in her chest. Amber slipped out of his arms. She wasn't really in charge. Sure she could call the shots, but the Eric got the final word; everything she wanted hinged on his approval. And if he couldn't call her one stupid endearment she wouldn't have ever thought of craving, before he himself had used it, what else would he refuse?
Amber tried to shove her disappointment aside, taking his hand and lightly covering it with hers. "Okay," she answered quietly. She couldn't get angry. She'd agreed to respect his boundaries, and that was that. Even if it felt like a slap to the face. Turning towards the bedroom, Amber was glad that it was dark; that he couldn't see her face as she led him; that she'd have these few seconds to recompose herself.
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Amber's response was quiet, but everything about her body screamed that she was holding back. She was holding his hand, but she'd pulled away from him, marching more than walking to the bedroom, refusing to look him in the eye. Foreman frowned at her back, following her but not because he wanted to lie down with her and go back to playing at being obedient. He wanted to spit out more questions. What would she ask next? It was her turn to be in charge--Foreman snorted mentally at the idea of "her turn", it had never fucking been his turn that he'd noticed--and so she'd tell him to say I love you, as if the empty words would make it true? Nothing ordered meant anything. This wasn't supposed to be another way for Amber to prove that patient of theirs right. Foreman got it, he wasn't the dominant one, message fucking received. That didn't mean he did what she said because he had no choice. He acted that way because it made Amber feel good, because she wanted it, because he wanted to give her what she wanted. He loved making her respond, giving her pleasure, making her come; if it turned her on for him to follow orders, then that turned him on too. It didn't mean he was no better than a dildo, acting only as much as Amber could manipulate it to do. He wasn't a fucking robot. He cared, and he'd tell her he cared, in his own way, in his own time.
He paused in the doorway of her bedroom, all his thoughts keeping him from going any further. He kept his voice as quiet as hers, but it damn well hurt, that she couldn't accept what he'd said. "Did you want me to say it, or did you want me to mean it?"
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So firmly she'd been striding ahead that when Eric stopped, she accidentally went on a step or two without him, their contact broken. Something vicious flared in Amber, deliciously validating her anger. Good. Better this way. If he was going to start digging his heels, let him dig them in all the way. If he wouldn't do what she said, then let him fucking not do any of it. She hadn't forced him into accepting the bet and her position. This wasn't the Diagnostics Department, where he'd be her superior no matter how they fucked or how pathetically doe-eyed they got over one another. They'd promised, and if he hadn't been willing to follow through with the terms, he shouldn't have misled her by agreeing.
So she whirled around, hair whipping, and she squared her shoulders, daring him to spit out whatever crap he had in that head of his. He was a shadow in the doorway, unreadable. Her nostrils flared as he spoke, clenched fists flying to rest on her hips. "I wanted you to say it!" Amber exclaimed, lashing out. She'd wanted him to say it as a joke, for them to laugh and bond over it. "And to mean it, whatever the fuck that's supposed to mean!" He'd been-- it'd been just so right, tender and caring and she'd felt so good at that moment, safe. The very opposite of how she felt now. Naked. Sticky. Amber lowered her face slightly, fingertips at her temples. Burned quietly. "How could you mean it one moment, and not the next?" If she'd been yelling before, now she was subdued, eyes closed. Fuck. Fuck.
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Foreman moved towards her, then. Like he was drawn, like he couldn't have stayed away. He enfolded her in his arms, not letting her get away--he was strong enough to manage that--and held her tight, wanting to keep her steady, stable, let her hold on to him in return if she wanted. He took a deep breath, forcing himself to stay relaxed. He was holding like she was the only comfort he had, and he hoped she didn't fight, didn't want to back away, because he needed her to hear him. This time, the words bubbled up easily, through all his discomfort and insecurity; soft and gentle and low, for her, only for her.
"I care about you. That doesn't change, okay? I always mean that." Foreman cupped the back of her head lightly, stroking his fingers through her hair. "Saying something like that, it's special to me, and if I said it every time, it wouldn't be." He sighed, turned closer to her, pressing his nose into the side of her head. Now, when she was upset, when he was doing everything in his power to make it better--even if he failed--he felt the same welling up of tenderness that he had when he'd been driving her towards her orgasm. She'd been lost in his arms. She'd been something fragile, she'd given herself entirely over to his touch. He'd wanted so much to make her feel good. Now, it was a tightness around his heart; he needed her to know, beyond ordinary words, how much it mattered to him that she was happy, that he hadn't hurt her. And even though they'd just had a damn argument about the word, making him more anxious and awkward than he ever had been to start, and saying it might set her off--it was still what he meant, in this moment. "Baby, I mean it. I mean it so much, but you can't--I can't just say it. Amber honey, you gotta let me say it because it matters."
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And then. He called her that stupid word again, worried, upset that she was upset, and it was dark, she couldn't see his face, but he held her so carefully, cradling, practically. Even his breath was tentative, as if he might blow her away. Tears spilled from Amber's eyes before she'd realized they'd built up. Fuck. And what did it mean, that he cared about her? How much? How? Like, he'd be sorry if she vanished, but he'd forget her when the next bit of news came in? Or was it more? How much more? And then it was honey, yet another word she'd never thought to apply to herself, and it hurt to hear him say it like he meant it, because how could he do this to her, yet another fucking ridiculous endearment. As if the first hadn't caused enough damage. Now she cried in earnest. Damn it, she hadn't cried since she'd been rejected for that fellowship at Mayo. Amber covered her face, hiding. "Fuck you, Eric." She said it with a sob, unable to stop that sound. "Oh, god, fuck you--" And the next thing she knew, she was clutching him, arms squeezed around his neck, her cheek to his, because she was mortified, because she couldn't bear if it he turned away from her again. She just didn't know how to believe him, at this moment, from now on.
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"Shh," he whispered, maybe too soft for her to hear. His face was still buried in her hair, and now he could feel the hot dampness of her tears on his shoulder, against his neck. This morning she'd wanted reassurance about how they'd know, when they were fighting, that they'd make it through to the other side, and he'd said they'd talk. What it hadn't even occurred to him to say was that this was important too--holding on, closing his eyes and swaying with her, breathing slowly to encourage her to do the same. There was still a part of him that was so damn terrified of this--of caring--but it was fucking true, and he couldn't make himself deny it just for his own smug comfort. Amber was the one who mattered now, what she felt. Her shoulders were shaking, her breath catching in her throat, and Foreman spread his palms, his thumb rubbing in soothing circles over her muscles, the other still tangled in her hair. "It's okay. It's going to be okay."
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"It's not okay," Amber repeated, furious at that thought, because how could it be, now. He must think she was a basket case, crying over nothing, then thrusting him away. It couldn't be okay because she was making everything worse. Even without the lights Amber knew the room well enough to know exactly how many steps to her dresser, and which drawer to yank open to her storage of sweaters, the oversized grey ones she wore when lazing around at home. She grabbed the topmost sweater and started to jerk it over herself, jamming her head through the collar, her arms through the sleeves.
This was stupid. The whole bet had been stupid. She'd never been in control, not really. Not of herself, and especially not of Eric. All the bet had done was deceive her, giving her false security. Amber lay her hands on the top of the drawer, trying so hard to keep back the sobs, breathing shallowly and quickly, lungs hurting from the effort of holding in her tremors. It'd be hard to go back to before, knowing that the terms had only been a lie, highlighting what she could never have. So what if for a few hours she could decide when to tell him to take off her shirt, and when she to suck him. So what. At the end they'd still be who they were, he a doctor with a career hitting a brick wall and a brother behind bars, and she no better than a game contestant working under the whim of judgmental bosses blind to her value. Amber rubbed at her nose with her arm, the snot threatening to fall before she could reach a tissue box or toilet paper or anything remotely dignified.
The truth was, she didn't want it to be a game. She wanted those rules-- I decide-- every night, always. Never wanted to give them up. Didn't know what she'd do after tonight, when the carriage turned back to a pumpkin and all the magic meant no more than a brief illusion of splendor. It meant nothing if she had to go back to not being in control, when morning came. Cinderella got her happy ending, but Amber couldn't be so stupid to think *she* had the glass slipper invitation to a lifetime of absolute power.
And Eric. This was assuming she hadn't scared him off, set him running for his car so that he could drive far and fast away from her crazy. "I'm sorry," she said, covering her face again, and she tried to speak again, but the tears got in the way. Her head hurt. "I'm so sorry, Eric, I don't know what I'm doing." She wanted so badly to run to him, to catch him, to gather him up in his arms, to keep him from taking to heart how she'd pushed him away, because she hadn't meant it, at least, she didn't mean it now, but she'd done it, and she didn't know how he wouldn't not think her fucked up. Amber hated this so much, how she was crying, the embarrassment. This was worse than a train-wreck, and why couldn't she stop.
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He was taken completely by surprise when Amber shoved him back, wrestling out of his arms. He let her go, confusion warring with all the rest of what she'd left him with. Why wouldn't it be okay? Why was everything he tried to make it better the wrong damn thing? He'd pushed Amber into accepting his hug, he knew that, and he couldn't approach her again without making her feel stifled. He took a step back and sat down on the bed, watching Amber's shadow as much as her face; it was all he could really see. She yanked on a sweater, rubbing her face dry on the sleeve, and Foreman could feel the moist patch on his shoulder where she'd cried on him at first. He didn't try to wipe it away.
"Tell me what's wrong," he said. It felt like nothing at all; he'd missed something. Maybe he'd been oblivious to whatever it was. But for God's sake, he wasn't going to stop screwing up if he didn't know what the hell was going on in Amber's head. If it wasn't over an endearment, if it was more than that, then she needed to tell him.
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She should be glad. She didn't know how she'd have faced him, tomorrow at work, if he'd fled the room and her. Angrily, probably, defying him all over again, getting back at him by throwing accusations and refusing any of his orders that hadn't come from House or Cuddy. This was better. They could still do-- something.
What had happened? She couldn't even say. Eric hadn't followed one of her commands, saying something about how he would, and implied that he didn't always feel "baby" about her, whatever the hell that meant. And that'd somehow made her angry and embarrassed. She didn't know why it had escalated that badly; she hadn't reacted so badly when Eric had lagged about stripping them.
Amber took a few solid gulps of air, which helped lessen her sobs. Good. A few more deep breaths and all that was left of her crying was a throbbing behind her eyes, some shaking, and a wet face. That last one she could take care of. She rubbed her eyes on her sleeve, using the cotton that hadn't already been rubbed against her snot; thought thankfully of washing machines. Tomorrow she'd clean this up.
She then turned around and padded softly to where she'd heard Eric sit, her bare feet chill against the wood panels. As silly as she felt now to have pulled on the sweater, it kept her from shivering any more than she had to. But Eric's warmth, immediate and encompassing, would be such a better solution. She was glad he was here, tension-melting glad. She reached out to where the darkness more intense; her fingers brushed against his left shoulder. Let them curl around him, shy about getting any closer. He wanted to know what was wrong. How could she tell him, when she herself didn’t? When just thinking about it tied her stomach up in knots and threatened to bring the tears back? "Can-- can we talk about it later?" Amber asked. This wasn't a command. This wasn't a part of her winnings of the bet. She needed to know if Eric would be okay with her not telling him, right away. "I don't really want to talk about it right now." Even as stupid as she felt, Amber couldn't stop herself from bringing her left hand to his cheek, stroking. She couldn't believe he was still here; how dear he was. She might not be able to piece what had just happened in an order that made any kind of sense, but he had, at one point, said he cared. Called her “baby,” and, for crying out loud, “Amber honey.” How cheesy could he get? Her heart swelled. "I just want to hold you."
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As Amber approached him, Foreman braced himself to hear any of that. He could hear the tears in her voice when she asked if they could talk later, even though she'd mostly stopped crying. Half of him wanted to insist: What did I do? What's so wrong about what I said that it made you cry? What's really going on?
She'd confused him enough already. Clinging to him and then pushing him away, crying and then yelling and now touching him softly and telling him she wanted to be held. Foreman wasn't going to run himself in circles trying to figure out what parts of her anger had been directed at him, and what was Amber's own feelings. Last night he'd got caught up imagining that she'd once had some asshole of a boyfriend. Gotten fucking delusional about it. Amber had laughed as she dismissed the idea, and he could only believe her. And yet he'd felt absolutely furious, at this figment. For all he knew, Amber was going through something like that; nothing to do with him, or, maybe more likely, tied to something he'd done or said but not directly his fault. If that was the case, it was pointless to ask her to explain. Foreman hadn't wanted to tell her every detail of what he'd imagined. He wouldn't ask her to get into it the same way. Later. He could deal with later, since Amber was sitting next to him now, telling him that there was something he could do. A way for him to make it better.
"All right," he said. It was a bit awkward, but he tugged the comforter and sheets down, and then pulled her with him as he lay down on his side. He let her settle herself, and then pulled the covers up, lastly throwing an arm over her and inching closer until their bodies were aligned. "Tell me something else," he murmured. He wasn't ready to sleep, and in the darkness, his silence and slow breathing might seem like he'd fallen asleep instead of caring enough to comfort her. "Something good."
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Her nose was still out of commission, stuffed up as it was, so she couldn't sense any scents. Couldn't visualize more of him than just shadows, either; it seemed all the darker, here in bed. Even so. Amber's lips parted. Her entire body throbbed, not just her head, in a low, intense beat. The sensation grew stronger with each moment, especially where they shared contact: Eric's arm draped over hers; their legs brushing against one another; and his breath on her face. It was like the entirety of her she was humming. For him. She wanted him. Amber moved closer, working a leg between his, resting a hand over his hip, stroking lightly. So warm, just like she'd thought.
Something good. It took a moment, but Amber thought back to Brian, to a business venture they'd attempted, offering to wash neighbors' cars-- they'd found customers, but Amber realized she could turn a higher profit by pretending to liking to babysit brats, so she gave that up, leaving the work in Brian's hands. He'd bought a guitar with the money he earned that summer. She didn’t know why she thought of that, maybe because the carnival had made her think of him and Geoffrey. But she couldn't tell Eric that, it'd only upset again, reminding him of his own brother. Not a topic she wanted to raise right now. So she answered, with an almost smile, "You."
Amber leaned in, tilting her mouth towards him, pausing, hesitating. Would he want any more, tonight? The way he'd covered them suggested he was thinking of sleep. And if that's what he wanted, then this time, she really would accept and make no fuss. But she wanted him so much, her labia becoming wet with a new round of arousal. With a paused breath in her chest, Amber fluttered a kiss against Eric’s lips. His were still swollen, from their earlier kissing, but dry. She licked them instinctively.
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He smiled slightly, taking Amber's answer as an apology of sorts. If he was good, that meant it couldn't have been entirely his fault, whatever had made her so upset. He was about to say something, tease, maybe ask her for an answer outside of this room, if he was the only good thing she could think of when he was this close, but then he felt her shift. Her breath came closer, until he could feel the aura of her, the warmth of her lips were so close to his. His mouth opened slightly, parting his lips in anticipation, and a second later Amber brushed a barely-there kiss across them. Foreman's breath hitched lightly when her tongue followed, a flick that wetted his lips and made his heart pound.
He wasn't going to assume. Fuck, that really would get him into trouble. At this point, it seemed like saying anything would. Amber's face was still close; there was the softest glow around her silhouette, light from the doorway and the curtained window catching in her hair. Foreman lifted his head and answered her kiss, the feather-light pressure, the momentary length. His arm was still around her, and Foreman slipped his palm down to her ass, the way he'd fantasized, and drew her the last half-inch closer. After that, the next move would have to come from her.
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Maybe she was just avoiding what had happened. Escaping her embarrassment and fears in sensuality, just as Eric had tried to drive away his anger against Marcus by overpowering her. But if she could-- if Eric were willing-- then she would.
Each heartbeat made Amber pulse, most of all between her legs, especially as she let herself, once, deliberately, brush her groin against Eric's hard abdomen; drew out the intensity of that motion, that suspended gasp of pleasure. Her own public hair scratched against her skin, sending tingles of excitement through her privates. Her hair down there was still damp, from when Eric had earlier made her peak, and Amber wondered if Eric would feel that wetness. If he'd like it as much as she did the mere thought.
Amber was becoming too hot, between her sweater and the covers and their combined body heat, but she didn't want to pull that article of clothing off; didn't want to break the spell with so sudden and drastic a movement. Feeling stuffy seemed a small price to pay to relish in this tenderness. Amber pushed her leg between his, slow like a cloud drifting through the sky, making her way up between his thighs. She considered the space before her: she could only just make out the outline of his head and shoulders. It'd be so good to see him, to know the expression he wore in this soft moment they were sharing. Maybe it was better she couldn't; seeing might make her heart ache with longing for what she had but could not last. It was enough just to lean in, holding his lower lip between hers (and, oh, it was familiar, that wide curve; it was Eric's, and it thrilled her that she knew it). Sucked it carefully, feeling the volume of his flesh. Breathed in deep, overcome.
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The green light was her kiss. Foreman's satisfied hmm was hardly voiced, more of a vibration in his throat than a sound. In the dark, his sense of touch felt heightened, and Amber's careful, gentle sucking on his lip brought all his attention to that one spot, touching off a rush of enjoyment. Foreman echoed Amber's kiss as much as he could, tracing her lip with his tongue, nuzzling closer by lifting his head, ignoring the strain on his neck. He could feel each part of his body, the firm mattress underneath him, the tangle of sheets around his legs, the cotton of Amber's sweatshirt against his skin; but most of all, it was her hips rolling against him, and her soft insistence as she kissed him breathless.
They'd been more or less on their sides, and it was becoming awkward, with leverage for Amber to push against him. Foreman gradually rolled to his back, concentrating on the kiss the entire time, his arm around Amber bringing her with him. This way Amber could rub off against him, and he'd benefit too; her thigh, when she pushed against him, massaged his dick at the same time, her leg between his providing friction with each movement. Already, his dick felt heavier, fuller. Every stroke felt better than the last. A throbbing rhythm of pulses, sensation heightening the more Foreman concentrated, focused on maintaining the same slow, deep cadence.
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"Eric," she said around shallow breaths. Found his face in the dark, rubbing one hand against his cheek, her other one supporting her weight against the mattress, to bring down her mound more heavily down against his thigh. She was so wet, and his skin was slick, too slick for just his sweat. She must be rubbing off on him. "How'd you feel about--" Amber looked down, raising an eyebrow suggestively, before realizing that if she couldn't see him, then he couldn't see her. Waited a moment before speaking again, moaning at an especially pleasing brush. He'd enjoyed it in the past. Did it Thursday, said he'd wanted to do it in the restaurant. Tried it last night. She'd never been comfortable, it was too intimate, too much, and always before she was ready. Eric rushed into it, did it without her asking, when she wanted something else. But that must mean he liked it. Craved it. And now, at this precise instant, she did, too. Wanted it with every mind-melting throb emanating from her clit. "I need you to go down me. Please." It came out as a whisper, not the statement she'd intended.
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When Amber spoke, it was nearly a surprise to hear his own name whispered in the dark. The way they'd been going so far, he'd expected this to be quieter. Their slower, deeper movements, yeah, but more than that, talking less. They'd been pretty loud in the living room. God, everything Amber had said had turned him on so much, even when he'd already come. Just the sound of her voice, her nearly obscene encouragements, telling him down to the instant what she wanted from him. So fucking hot. It had been so good, but this way had its benefits, too. Speaking with their bodies, telling each other how good it was without even a word. And hearing Amber's question, Foreman had so many questions--would she stop him halfway through? Would she leave him with a hard-on for the second night in a row? Foreman wanted to be patient, wanted not to care about that; he'd be a real bastard if he thought he was entitled to sex or to getting off with anything but his own hand. But Christ, if Amber got scared off every time, he'd stop offering, and respond less readily when she asked.
Without seeing her face, he couldn't know what it meant--if the break in her voice had simply meant that she'd found the perfect angle for a moment, or if it was something deeper, some hesitation. Foreman didn't even know if he could ask if she was sure without screwing this up. But she'd asked, and fuck, he wanted to. He wanted to prove it was nothing to be afraid of, that--like their first night--he could make it amazing, even if she had doubts. "Yeah," he whispered. He lifted a hand to cover hers on his cheek, squeezing her palm. One arm around Amber's back, Foreman shifted underneath her, until he could roll them back over, as gently as he could, not landing on her with his full weight. He supported himself on his knees and his forearms, and dropped a kiss on her lips, or as close as he could manage without seeing her. "Talk to me," he murmured. How she'd take that, he had no idea--to order him around, maybe, but mostly he wanted her to feel free to make him stop, if she wanted.
Kneeling between Amber's thighs, Foreman nudged up the hem of her sweatshirt with his fingertips and bent to kiss her stomach. He could smell her, and God, he could bury himself in that scent, taste every inch of her. Soon, but not too fast. Not too much. He ran his palms down Amber's legs, firmly, massaging her quads, while letting his mouth roam lightly down her abdomen until he reached her pubic hair. He paused to pant, close his eyes and breathe her in. He kissed her inner thigh, and, at last, moved closer. His lips were wet instantly, the thick, slippery taste of her strong in his mouth. Foreman licked his way up her labia, until his tongue found her clit. Yeah. Oh yeah. He went softly, tracing his tongue firm and slow over her clit, trying so damn hard not to overwhelm her, and still make her feel everything he could give her.
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"Yeah," Amber whispered. "Okay." He wanted to hear her. She could tell him. What she wanted, what she needed. That'd feel good. She'd be in his hands (mouth). She was trusting him, and from their time at the desk, when he'd understood her wordless pleas as clearly as if she'd written them out, she believed he'd do the same now. Trusted him to pick up on her cues. She was in his care. But if she could tell him, that was one more comfort, one more reason for her to relax, to preemptively spread herself. "Make me feel good, Eric," she said just as softly, caressing his collar bone and shoulders before he slipped out of reach.
As he settled between her legs, Amber tore her sweat-damp sweater off. It had long since become greater than a nuisance; her breasts swayed with the motion, freed. Her nose was clearing up, and she could just pick up the scent of sex-- it'd be overwhelming under normal circumstances.
Her tummy quivered as he kissed her there, a new rush of arousal lighting up her pussy. God, how did he do this to her. How was he so amazing. Amber squirmed, panting, as Eric touched her, always guessing right, making her rigorously aware of forgotten body parts. The tingling spread everywhere, like ink in a glass of water, bringing pleasure to her quads, to her hamstrings. "Yeah. Yeah, like that," Amber said, still quiet. She curved her hands around his head, fingertips brushing against the pinpricks of buzzed hair; wanted to let him feel how good she felt.
Her abdomen clenched as he lowered again, in anticipation, in sudden worry. What if this was like last time. She hadn't predicted hurting like that. Amber forgot to take in air as she waited for his next action, for her reaction to it. But all she felt, his breath moist on where she felt so sensitive, was a desire for more. She whined, hoping Eric wouldn't stop there, or lag for long. And he didn't. Amber threw her head back, moaning, arching up, digging her elbows into the mattress. But-- she gasped. "Not yet," she said, pushing down away from his tongue. "Lower," she tried to explain, letting him know that she still wanted this, and how. She hoped the moment hadn't been ruined, that they could build on this. "My entrance, inside--"
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A second later he drew back, turning his face toward Amber's damp thigh, and panted hard, forcing himself not to pull away entirely. Why the hell not yet? Why did she ask if she didn't want it? He barely heard Amber's next words, caught up in his own frustration, but a moment later he realized her hands were still guiding him closer, and she hadn't said stop. Different, that was all. Talking to him as he'd asked. Telling him. Foreman licked one long line along Amber's thigh, back toward her labia, tasting salt: sweat and arousal.
He took a breath, steadying himself, and went lower this time. He circled his tongue around her vagina, where she was even wetter, her taste stronger. Not pausing to tease for long, Foreman slipped his tongue inside her, the tip exploring slowly. His grip tightened on her thighs, then moved up to her hips, to steady her and himself. He was getting a crick in his neck, but that was the last thing on his mind. What mattered was Amber spreading her legs wider, reacting more strongly with each passing second. Foreman thrust his tongue deeper, feeling how tight she was with arousal. Imagining his dick inside her, now, feeling each pulse and throb of her around him--oh fuck, it'd be so good, so fucking good. Later. His breath was washing over her, his whole face damp and hot from rubbing against her, her pubic hair scratching his cheeks.
He knew now what it was. That Amber was sensitive, more than he'd ever expected, from her previous orgasm or simply from how strong her arousal was now. Foreman touched her just above her labia, not directly on her clit but higher up on her mons, where she'd still feel the pressure. He began massaging his fingertips in circles, the same motion that had brought Amber off so spectacularly in the living room. Nothing too firm, too insistent. With his tongue lapping upward, deeper inside her, and his fingers pressing, Foreman breathed as best he could through his nose and started a rhythm, so light and achingly slow, touching her at the same pace that he wanted, so badly, to feel around his dick as he thrust into her.
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Amber forgot time, lost in the increasingly higher brinks Eric raised her to. Forgot herself, every muscle of hers delivered to ecstasy, straining for climax. If she'd had the presence of mind, she'd have told him not to come; told him to save himself so that she could really feel him deep inside, where his tongue and fingers couldn't reach. Even now, about to come, Amber still wanted that, Eric as close, as inside, as he could be. It would never be enough. But they could do better. As it was, Amber could only clutch his head once more, because it was now, only she'd lost her words, and the best she could do was to angle him, her cries becoming louder and increasingly frustrated. He had to bring her off now, touch her clit more directly, because if the moment passed, she’d become too raw for any more. It’d be a repeat of last night.
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Amber's frustration, her impatience, it all showed through. Her fingernails were pinching the skin at the back of his neck as she tried to pull him up; her hips were moving so much that she was nearly rubbing off on his face the way she'd been doing on his leg earlier. Each sound that left her throat seemed to be torn from her, high-pitched and halfway between pain and entreaty. They were wordless, sharp moans, ohh gasped out, and Foreman knew she needed more. Was asking for more. He was almost hesitant to go further, though. The last thing he wanted was to ruin it now. Just enough, just that last touch--God, he wanted her to remember this, remember feeling like this, remember trusting him. He never wanted to hurt her.
He switched positions, sliding one finger inside Amber, enough to give her something to clench down on, not so much that his thrusts would leave her oversensitive. His mouth went to her clit, careful, so goddamn careful. One swirling lick, paying attention to Amber's reaction, straining his ears to hear her, concentrating on her hands tightening around the back of his head. All the signs pointed towards keep going, and he did, sucking gently on her clit, adding the occasional probe with his tongue, his finger inside her rubbing almost delicately. Foreman increased the suction incrementally, let Amber's hips free to push herself against him or to pull away, tell him what she wanted. She had to be close. Because of him. Wild, because of him, lost and needy and feeling so good, for him. So hot. Come on, baby. Come for me.
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That was-- no, words still hadn't come back to her. Amber took a shuddering breath, sitting up, trying to avoid any more physical stimulation to her genitals. She was tired, raw, sated, like she'd just finished five exercise sessions one after the other. Tingled all over. But she sought Eric with her hands, wanting to bring him up, to kiss him, to hold him as her heart kept on swelling, threatening to burst. She wanted to tell him, to give him an inkling of how she'd felt and was feeling, and how, if she weren't so exhausted, happy she'd be. Amber wouldn't have told him how dependent she'd been there, relying on his every movement to keep her on the right track, as if he'd been carrying her along the edge of a cliff. That she'd keep to herself. But if he'd known, read her well enough, how to keep her from falling, then he could probably notice all that without her saying a single thing. Amber sighed, carressing with her hands every part of him within reach, trying to communicate that way some of the emotion inside her.
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God. He didn't have to see her to know how beautiful she was--messy and sweaty and shaking, yeah, and his, all his. Foreman ran his forearm across his face, wiping himself off as best he could, and then he moved up the bed. He couldn't have stopped himself. It wasn't even because he wanted, needed to come--for the instant, his body was his last concern. He wanted to cover Amber, hold her, share his warmth, and keep this feeling going for as long as possible. He let his weight settle on her, his cock trapped between them, and hugged her as well as he could, kissing her lightly where he could reach. He gulped back his breath, trying not to pant too heavily right in her face, and finally he buried his face in the crook of her neck, so that he could force his breathing to calm down without making Amber feel like she had to do something for him--at this point, Foreman wouldn't ask for more if she couldn't take it; he'd bring himself off with all the satisfaction in the world, because he'd already been with her in the moment that mattered.
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God, she was exhausted, practically numb from ecstasy. Every once in a while a new aftershock washed over her, and she shivered, sensitive, unable to stop her body from singing so much joy.
Still. Despite her haze, his hard, thick erection hadn't escaped her attention. It seemed so distant, hardly related to her, throbbing hot against someone else, though some part of Amber knew that he must be aching with desire and that it was because of her. She blinked, slowly, pupils immense, slowly working through a thought process. He was hard. He wouldn't want to stay that way. Warmth tinged through Amber, making its way past the fog she was traveling through. She could help him with that. Could coax him into her, into coming. Maybe she was too sensitive for that. Just his body around hers, their sweat-- when had they built up so much, they were sliding against one another-- felt like an overkill. Amber rolled her head to the side, breathing shallow, but deep.
Still. She wanted him inside her, wanted him to feel pleasure from her, to feel every inch of him losing control, to know inside and out how his orgasm was. To know how good she made him feel. It’d make her happy, that she could return the favor. Her hips rose, not as another aftershock of the orgasm, but as an encouragement. She wouldn't come again, not any time soon, but she still wanted more. "The condoms," Amber whispered, lazily, somehow finding the strength to cup his face again. "They're in the bed stand, top drawer--"
Taking advantage of the natural lube their bodies had provided, Amber twisted so that her back was to him for the second time this evening. Earlier, it had been to hide her vulnerability; now, it was because on her side, with him aligned against her back, there'd be less stimulation to where she felt sore. Amber's breath quickened in anticipation; sucked on her lip in anticipation. Wriggled and bent her upper leg forward to give him the space to enter. To invite him.
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